What. Did. You. Say?!

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And so I sit here in front of the comp writing this after noticing there is no way for me to finish my homework for CS320.

Kinda hard to write code when I can't wrap my head around the logic. Well, it's sorta there but it's still not really there.

No, don't get me wrong. The logic itself is already understood. It's putting it in code that I still haven't figured it out. Semantics and all that.
I can only blame myself for this, since I've had many an opportunity to work on it properly and I kept on putting it off. Not that I'm leaving it until last minute, mind you. I did sit down and code what I understood last Friday. And as far as I know, that works. Minor bug, but it works.

It's just getting the stuff to display that's my problem. I can't seem to get the pages to present properly. Neither in JSP or in EL... stupid beans.

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Had the first official Anime and Japan Club meeting on Monday and it was rather fun.
We started a bit late due to us being one of the first clubs in those rooms so stuffs wasn't exactly prepared before hand.
Projector had to be rolled out and time was lost waiting for a suitable audio cable. But it all works now :D

We killed some time by having people introduce themselves.
I though this was a good idea since it attached a name to the face and hopefully get people to come back since we don't exactly have a good retention record.
That went on for a while until Pearl showed up and started her intro and explained what we were there for.

By this point, I had xPad up and running on the projector and was writing things to get people to laugh. Really stream-of-conscious kind of crap. Snide comments and remarks. Crap like that.
This was really fun for me since I kept on making fun of people's taste in things, but bloody Tom had to take it a bit further by accusing one of the new guys of reading yaoi... *facepalm*
Seriously, that crap shouldn't be pulled on someone unless you know them and Tom had the audacity to blame me for writing it...

*RAGE*

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Had my first midterm that night... all I can say is that I'm dropping that class.

I went about studying for this class all wrong. I though reading the book and putting effort and reading others' questions on the forum would be enough. But no. It wasn't.
I didn't push myself like I did for the data structures classes. Those classes were enjoyable in the sense that everything was fun, and stuff ran with minor bugs if there were any.
But this class, none of that. Can't get the logic coded. And the code isn't exactly straightforward. I mean, when a simple thing like forgetting to upload a build without updating the xml file causes the server to lose it, it kind of delays stuff since it's no longer testable. Not to mention there was no note about this until a couple days later.
There was the lack of source code for the first homework. Gave me a zero on that even though the builds were on the server and it worked. Well, save for the text validation.
I also keep doing non-standard code and I feel that this is going to hurt me way too much academically so I'm just going to take a W instead of an F. Can't afford anymore Fs. Don't want to get Fs. I just made some up, I don't want to go down that road again...


I've gone through a rough series of days mulling over my actions and Monday night pissed me off quite a bit and I kind of just kept on throwing stuff around when I got home.
This was enough that my dad wondered just was pissing me off so much.
Well, he asked this the next day. He was concerned for me. But damn, he just made things worse.
I have the impression that he's not finding the words to explain himself cause I know my grasp of Spanish isn't crap and all I heard was stuff he'd already told me since I was very young.
Not only that, I do take his advice seriously, but when I'm told advice as if I've never taken it really irritates me.
Like the whole "Try your best!" bit. It gets tiring really quickly because after a while, I feel worse than a failure. Since you know, I failed even while doing my best.

I didn't exactly leave on that good of a note but I hope he understood he ruined the rest of my day.
I wasn't rude to him. Far from it. I just hanged on to what little sanity I had left and waited for him to sorta pause so I could leave.

*sigh*

Many would say that I need a stiff drink, but that desire really doesn't come to me. I actually like drinking for the flavor, not for the psychological effects. I have other crap for that but sadly, I'm always on the receiving end of a disparaging comment.